Sometimes we have the tools to help ourselves and yet we forget to use them.....
I posted this on my personal social media page yesterday and really, should have shared it as a blog....I'm learning.  LOL

Yesterday in my post about the hornet situation, I mentioned that I was going to let you know what I’ve been doing to help myself get through all of the big emotions from the week.  

So, here we go…..

Originally when I created this post, I was coming from the aspect that my ‘cup runneth over’ and that the hornet issue was the tipping point to an extremely active emotional rollercoaster that I have been on this year… so many other people.  While this is how I was feeling on Thursday when I first started writing this post, my perspective around this entire situation keeps changing so I keep rewriting this post to reflect my changing perspective.

See, originally, I was judging myself for how I was feeling, how I was reacting, the thoughts I was having around the hornets and oh, how that rabbit hole was dark and deep.  I was mad that my husband, Graham, wasn’t feeling the same way I was about this situation.   I felt stupid for feeling the way I was feeling and I felt extremely alone.  

And I’m sure some people who read my post yesterday may have thought, ‘big deal, who cares…it’s just a bee’.  I was not speaking positively to myself, I was beating myself up for how I was feeling and reacting…..all of which I KNOW DOES NOT help me, in fact, it does quite the opposite.  And I know this…..I talk about this with friends and family members and in my Facebook Group ALL THE TIME!  So, step one was to appreciate how I was feeling and change the words I was speaking over myself.  

Earlier this summer, I became a certified ‘Aroma Freedom Technique’ Practitioner.  
What is ‘Aroma Freedom Technique (AFT)?’    I’ll try to keep this as brief as I can….it’s a step-by-step process for identifying and releasing negative thoughts, feelings and memories that interfere with reaching our goals and dreams.  It is meant to be used as a way to set a person’s emotional energy flowing in a positive direction, towards growth and expansion rather than contracting in fear and doubt.  And we use Young Living essential oils to trigger a permanent shift in how we view ourselves and the world.

While I am now certified in this technique and I absolutely love helping others with it, for some reason, I didn’t even think about using it on myself until Thursday.  I can’t explain why but I didn’t even think of it, maybe I wasn’t ready for it, I don’t know.  What I do know is that after I walked myself through some AFT sessions, the proverbial onion started to peel and I have so much clarity, my outlook has changed, I am speaking positively about myself again all of these steps are allowing me to move forward and I feel so much stronger. 

I have been able to recognize that:
• It’s OK for me to have all of these emotions and to feel how I’m feeling, we are all different;
• It’s OK that Graham is not experiencing the same emotions.  He does not have to feel the same way that I do.  It does not make either one of us a bad person;
• I was speaking poorly over myself and berating myself for how I was feeling;
• Other people perceptions of me, is NONE of my business, I need to be me, authentically me…period;
• I have experienced similar feelings in my life but have yet to deal with those emotions from those memories, until now; and
• While I can’t control the situation, I can control how I react to the situation.

There is no right or wrong way to feel about this....well, maybe I should rephrase that.... it’s not OK that the bees have invited themselves to set up shop inside the walls of our house and throw a party and then allow their guests to continue to search the premises for more locations to have fun.  I’m trying to find the humor in this.....LOL. 

Yesterday, I was feeling stronger so I decided to come out of seclusion and take a picture to go with my post for yesterday.  I took some deep breaths and left the bedroom with determination that I am going to get through this. Right after I took the picture a bee came out of the vent and those feelings, tears, etc. were right there again.  I walked away in tears, took some deep breaths, put my hands on my heart kept repeating my affirmation I AM Safe’.  I sat back at the dinning room table to work on my post.  Yes, my head was still spinning like a shiny disco ball looking for hornets.  And every time I felt the emotions coming up, I would smell my oils and say my affirmation.  And you know what…..I was able to sit here, create the post and later in the night actually post it.

This morning we attended the virtual funeral for my great Uncle which was being held in Manitoba and I just kept doing the same steps that I did yesterday.  Yes, I am still looking for bees but my head is not going to spin around anymore and I have been able to sit here ALL day.  I didn’t need to take any trips to hide out in the bedroom with the kitties to make it through the day….I stayed out here and you know what?  It feels amazing and I’m feeling so much stronger.

I haven’t shared that I am certified in AFT or the love I have had for my essential oils for the past 4 years but I am now able recognize why.  I was worried about what others would think and say.  So many people think essential oils are voodoo oils, snake oils, etc.…. I’ve heard it all, so I didn’t want to share about it.  I am truly blown away at how much my perspective has changed after doing the AFT’s this week and all of the lightbulb moments that have been happening for me.  And, yes, I know, just like anything, the person needs to be open to it and while something may work for you, it may not work for someone else.    

I had the tools that could help me right there at my fingertips. 

I just had to be open and ready to do the work.  And because I continue to put into practice what I have learned, I am helping myself to move in the right direction.  I also reached out for help, with posting about the hornets.  Thank You again to everyone that has commented, called or sent texts to help.  I so appreciate all of you!!!  Because of all of these things, I can say with absolute confidence that I am going to be OK, everything is going to be OK.  And, I’m optimistic that I will feel strong enough tomorrow to ending the seclusion for our kitties and can allow them to freely roam the house again.

If you are still reading this, Thank You, and I hope that me sharing my experience will help someone else. ❤️
And if, you have any questions about AFT or essential oils, please don’t hesitate to ask me and I can assure you that I won’t be hesitating to share about either of these helpful tools going forward either!  ❤️


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