It’s a new day and a new day to work on my goals.
Yet, I keep hearing ‘You can’t do this’, ‘No one wants to hear about it’, ‘You don’t know what you are doing’, ‘You are not worthy’, ….my inner child or I like to call it my ‘Tasmanian Devil’ is working extremely hard to derail my plans of refocusing on my goals, getting into action today and doing what I want to do to reach my goals. I woke up excited to get started, I had a plan already ready to go, my roadmap ready and then good ole’ ‘Tasmanian Devil’ decides to swirl in like a hurricane and quickly flip my motivation into self-doubt, paralysis and even imposter syndrome.
All of my old negative thoughts and the oodles of life plans that I have made be uprooted, taken away from me or derailed all came flooding back with gale force winds. From not being able to bear children and be the Mom I have dreamed about being since I was a child, to trusting others with my heart while they ripped it out and broke my trust, to promising my childhood best friend that we would be better at staying in touch and yet failing to follow through and now I’ll never have that opportunity again until I’m in heaven, to allowing my career to create my identity and purpose, to loosing that career due to downsizing and absolutely crushing my self-confidence and really question what my purpose is.
I’ve had so many amazing plans and lifegoals, they were all mapped out, the bags were packed, the ticket was purchased and I was ready to get on the train and go for it. Yet, so many times my plans came to an abrupt stop and I have been left sitting on the platform watching as the train, my train…..leave without me while I sat on the bench
Frozen in fear
Frozen in self-doubt
Frozen in procrastination
Frozen in all the ‘what if’s’
The train leaves the station while I’m unable to move and the crushing wave of unworthiness surrounds me.
It’s been so incredibly hard to have had so many beautiful visions/plans for my life be derailed by others and by myself. I know that my life experiences have been extremely powerful from teaching me many lessons, to allowing me many opportunities to see new perspectives, to pushing me out of my comfort zone, and also reminding me of my strengths and what’s important to me. On the flip side, my life experiences and the many words that others have spoken over me have also been soul crushing at times…when I allow them to.
So, today as I sit here on that proverbial train platform as the train is coming into the station. I recognized the pattern and put some of the training I have learned into action.
I hear you ‘Tasmanian Devil’
I see you
I feel the hurricane winds you are spinning around me
I appreciate what you are trying to do today but hear me loud and clear…..
I AM stronger than this!
I AM meant for more!
I AM worthy!
I BELIEVE in myself!
I CAN do hard things!
I DESERVE to shine my light!
This is MY train; it will be leaving the station
I WILL confidently step onto this train without you ‘Tasmanian Devil’.
Your ticket is not valid on this train.
It’s time to flip the script and change the outcome. Time to step into the plan I have mapped out for myself. Will it be perfect…probably not but that’s part of the adventure and it will all be worth it.
And whenever my ‘Tasmanian Devil’ tries to buy a ticket to derail my plans again, I will remember that I have the tools at my fingertips, I just have to use them so I can continue to keep taking these imperfect steps, one step at a time, towards becoming the best version of me.
I’ve got this!
If you want my help silencing your inner narratives or ‘Tasmanian Devil’, I’m here to help you too!
Juliette
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A friendly reminder that in order to grow or to make changes, it all takes time.
Give yourself grace, forgive yourself if you have fallen off the track or stopped working on your goals or changing your habits.
Don’t compare your process to others, as hard as that is sometimes.
With it being Spring, it’s a perfect time to drive the point home.
When you plant seeds in your garden, do they burst out of the ground the next morning? No, it takes time for them to grow.
You need to enhance your soil so that your plants have the right growing conditions, you need to fertilize, weed, tend to your gardens each and every week.
You need to water your plants to help them grow and make sure they have the right amount of sun or shade, depending on the item you are growing.
If you didn’t have a successful garden last year and fail to make any changes, is it reasonable to expect that your garden will be successful this year?
I know I have said this before but I’m going to say it again because it’s so true:
“If you change nothing. Nothing changes.” ~Joyce Brothers
You will get the same results next year and every year after that, unless you make some changes. You might have a little bit of change.
If you don’t tend to your garden weekly by weeding it, eventually the weeds will choke out the plants you want to grow.
And those plants that need sun, simply won’t grow to their full potential if you plant them in the shade. And if you forget to water your plants....well, we all know what happens when things get dehydrated, don’t we?
As you are planting new seeds for your life, you are:
- adjusting your growing environment by being mindful of what you are reading/watching/listening to;
- practicing gratitude and enriching your soul;
- weeding the garden around you and removing the toxicity around you, including people, your thoughts and the words you are speaking to yourself;
- removing yourself from negative people and situations in your life;
- removing toxic products and habits and replacing them with healthier ones;
- nourishing your body with healthier foods, supplements, exercise; and
- empowering yourself to shine by showering yourself with self-love, gratitude, positivity and putting your needs and desires before others.
By doing all of these, you are tending to the beautiful garden of your life.
You are making changes to help your life grow in all the ways that are possible.
Keep tending to your garden everyday and continue to improve the soil you are growing in.
The possibilities for your life are truly endless but only if we make sure that we are tending to our garden and our environment.
Give yourself time to work on these changes.
You are changing habits that you have had for many, many years and it will take a lot of time and effort for you to cultivate the changes you are desiring. And, those changes are going to be worth it!
Keep tending to your garden and enjoy reaping the benefits you so deserve!
